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This blog is really meant to be one thought and should be seen as a unified body of knowledge rather than separate, segmented thoughts. It all fits together. It should also be read from the oldest to newest posts. I will go back and start to fill in all the information I’ve intentionally left out of my original posts, so stop back to see what’s changed.


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Daily Meditation Focus 12NOV2009


In an age of materialism images-1 and supercharged egos, the notion of humility may be quickly discarded or dismissed. While it is true that most continue to learn, evolve and expand throughout life, many attribute acquired knowledge and experience to conquest or equate material possession as power and discard humility in the face of their fellow humanity.

I must admit, I struggle daily with the internalization of humility. For those on the path, certain truths are imparted and states of mind expand to reveal higher principles and orders at work in the space we inhabit. There are times when I quite frankly want to grab the people around me by their consciousness and say “can’t you see that?”, but of course the typical response is for them to nod their heads aloofly and stare into the closest advertisement or television and comment on the latest artificial intelligence enabled smoothie maker or $1200 Christian Louboutin shoes.

Humility comes into play heavily when we begin to see the relationships of consciousness to the hierarchies of existence. We all exist as extensions of each other and to the higher realms of consciousness. In seeing others as reflections of ourselves we begin to see how the ‘inner’ profoundly effects the ‘outer’, which is largely illusory. To be the consummate student, to learn and ‘see’ how service to others reflects certain higher compassions and assists the higher nature of our ‘selves’ is to internalize humility. The way ‘out’ or ‘up’, is to embrace the illusion, learn from it and love it.

Just as we can not see radio waves or gamma rays, there are conscious realms that do exist which we can not, in this current state, access. They exist above and below and for the most part, are ascended aspects of our evolved consciousness in, for lack of a better term, our futures. To believe we are completed or ‘finished’ in this fallen realm of matter is to place ourselves above what have been called the ‘better angels of our nature’. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what is the relationship of humility to meditation and how do we assist ourselves and those around us by internalizing humility?

Please feel free to post any comments or feedback regarding this topic or share your meditation experience with our community in the Comments section below.

Bread of the Presence – Monoatomics, Akhenaton, Serabit El-Khadim and Feeding the Ka

While I do not encourage or recommend ingestion and attempted integration of the white powder monoatomic gold (MFKZT) for anyone, there is sufficient information available regarding this process, extreme physical longevity, the cessation of aging, bi-location and highly ascended states. Just as symbol exists across many conceptual states of mind and dynamic associations, so does the allegorical Philosopher’s Stone of alchemy. As above, so below…as within, so without. The formulation and manifestation of MFKZT exists in several parts and the monoatomics require additional charge and subtle integration within the body. Each chakra has its corollary and attributing counterpart within the Ka in the form of glands. The subtle connecting threads to the ethereal, or light body can be enhanced and with proper care and preparation can be nurtured to assist in the ascension process. Each gland has its own monoatomic counterpart within the PGM group. High-spin, orbitally rearranged monoatomic gold changes the Pineal Gland and activates the Crown Chakra to an extraordinary degree. (See “Silence is Golden” Daily Mediation Post)

The harmonics, ratios, mixes, dietary preparation and ingestion schedules will vary from person to person. Without proper preparations, this process can both retard and potentially cease the inner progress. If you are not actively seeing with third sight and are not able to experience reconciliation of higher mind/sight with the material presentation (the world around you) in a harmonious, inner way…what I call Fifth State (the allegorical, inner Pyramid constructed), do not even consider this path. The ability to function in an abstracted, heavily symbolic mind-state while remaining in this world’s collapsed realities requires significant training, initiation and a high degree of integration of the Great Work.

The sacred geometries must be fully understood in both esoteric and sacred context before serious contemplation of this process should be considered. MFKZT addiction must be thoroughly contemplated and trade-offs considered. Perhaps a deep, exhaustive, symbolic and esoteric examination of Frank Herbert’s early allegorical and fictional portrayal of the Spice Melange may prove beneficial for initiates and those well on the Path. This is a path taken by few and must be taken alone for the purposes of service to mankind in my humble opinion.

Yes, I know how to make it and no, I may not tell you. I’ve left all the pointers necessary, scattered throughout this blog.

Egyptian Roots of the Bread of the Presence – MFKZT and Alchemy

This was a very interesting lecture given by Vincent Bridges in the past year. His presentation of John Dee’s work in Prague as well as his historical synopsis of the history of Alchemy is quite interesting and informative as well as being entertaining. The work he presents on the geometric and mathematical application of the Enochian Tables as well as Sephirothic constructs in euclidian context is a good introduction for those interested in a primer for the Sacred Sciences.

It is my hope that in the future he will go further into the harmonics and resonance waves associated with the geometries, particularly as they relate to the volumetrics of the solids and nested spaces. I posit that these resonance harmonics are directly tied to what Rupert Sheldon calls Morphogenic Fields; the self organizing sub-space fields that determine the structures of life in physically manifested realities. For those interested in further study of number theory and sacred geometries (Sacred Sciences) as they relate to esoteric principles, I highly recommend the works of R. A. Schwaller Delubicz as well as those of his wife Isha.

For more information on Vincent Bridges’ work, please see his website: http://vincentbridges.com/

Egyptian Natron Beds – Prima Materia Meteoric Glass Source

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The location of the natron and alchemical glass deposits on the Egyptian-Libyan border. If anyone is making a trip to this location, please contact me. I’d very much like to have some glass fragments brought back for me from this location first hand.

The Reconciliation of Religion

The esoteric and inner tradition has been carried and protected by countless people and groups through the ages. Many gave their lives and many sacrificed all they had to keep the lamp burning when it flickered and dimly glowed during the darkest corners of human history. In preserving the wisdom, we have brought forward from the recesses of time, a remnant and a technology of sorts which surely floated with the Ark on the waters and passed down with the Ark of gold and wood. The wisdom belongs to all faiths, to all races and to all in need. It was protected by the Egyptians, by Islam, by Templars, by Tibetans, by Initiatic Orders long forgotten, by every color of man and woman and by those with no conscripted religion. It is in fact, a kind of quality of ‘being’ and thought, an awareness and conscious state that transcends all boundaries and separation and is the great uniter of all things. It is timeless, impossible to speak out loud and is both a tangible and intangible thing beyond all value.

There is an aspect of all beings that ascends to its higher nature and dissolves all realized boundaries at times of need. As we move into a new age of Earth, the troubles and problems appear to be unsolvable and surely headed towards cataclysmic end, but this is not the case. It is within the esoteric traditions that humanity carries its pinnacles of being. That light exists on behalf of all things and with it, our solutions to the ‘unsolvable’ become elegantly solved.

I see the televised broadcasts of the Middle East…Israel and Palestine, the gnashing, constant turmoil and suffering being perpetuated. The reconciliation of both religion and illusory separation can be obtained though only one mean. This is a Work to be done by a few and achieved by many. The time is at hand to begin actualizing peace in the Middle East and throughout the world. Through the Inner work it will be accomplished and through the wisdom of unified minds it shall begin to propagate throughout the collective mind of humanity. This is one of the secrets of the Invisible College. This conflict is not about land nor religion nor is it about retribution. It is about the lie of ‘self’. The time is now at hand to look inside not only our selves, but our fellow man; to experience the reflection of ourselves in others. Gone will be the days when common ground is found and then ‘lost’ by a few who withdraw within their own illusions of separation. We are beginning to see this now and no human will truly able to hide their inner lies no more than a small child attempting to take visible refuge behind a chair or blanket is seen by its parents. We all are becoming able to see it and it is through this all penetrating and all seeing ‘light’, that the illusory kingdoms of those who have ‘fallen’ completely into the material world shall be exposed and through this compassionate and unifying work, all shall be accomplished. As one becomes aware of their illusions and constructed gilded cages, through the gaze of this inner light, a change begins. You most certainly know exactly what I am referring to and have for some time.

This is our future and our Work. Everything exists on many levels and it is through the reconciliation of the seemingly disparate that we find our union and our peace.

The Evolution of the Church – Open Initiatic Ritual

This topic has yet to be broached widely, but I believe the time is at hand to begin open exploration of the future of the Holy See and the broader implications of an evolutionary  change within the Catholic Church as it passes through transition into a new age.

As certain information is disseminated over the coming years, it will be clear, that a significant shift will be experienced by many people seeking spiritual guidance and a path to an Inner Dispensation. The current, outer dogmatic teachings which have been reserved for the masses (i.e. Milk for Babes) will not provide adequate foundations for those with need.

The timeless teachings which have been passed from the last Epoch, have been preserved within many bodies and Orders. As mankind becomes ready to receive the wisdom on a larger scale as the unfoldment of collective consciousness attains a new level, we could very well see a transformation within the established firmaments of religion as we know them today. The Church of Rome could become a new vehicle for the Inner Tradition and Initiatic ritual. While this concept and notion may seem counterintuitive or even repulsive to some, deeper thought and meditation on the repository and Inner, esoteric knowledge archived within that Order may prove most enlightening. The passing of the current church and the transfiguration into a new body provides a symmetry that is echoed in the spirit of the Ages.

While I do not subscribe to, nor condone the actions of the Business of Spirituality, I also understand that everyone is on the Path; across the vast spectrum that is consciousness and awareness. Spirituality is not found outside the ‘self’ but most assuredly the ‘church’ has provided a means of fellowship and community outreach throughout the world for many people. This idea I put forth is seen as a intermediate step to move the masses toward great realizations and immense personal freedom. Religion has become the great divider and functions at times to cause great inner discord and disharmony, but I choose to find a middle ground at this point. The true origins of the Judeo-Christian religions have been in many ways clouded and rewritten, but the true ‘beginnings’ of these ‘faiths’ have but one progenitor and one Path which points to a singular, timeless teaching and truth. Mankind is not ‘hardwired’ for religion, but it is wired for spirit and it in that spirit that our species ascends to its heights.

Exile and Exodus

It wasn’t until just today that I really meditated on this concept and now here it is, gathered around me like a weird shadowy cloud, spinning slowly within the large space I sit in, confronting me with ghosts of past battles, urging me on to send these words to the ether.

When a person of clarity, or sound judgement, strength of being or just plain will of mind threatens the status quo or the cushy and tranquil lies of illusion of those around them, something happens. A quiet, assuredly not spoken consensus to quietly close doors, harden hearts once glowing with friendship or approval and the slow extension of imaginary arms begin to silently keep the beast at bay.

For a person it is exile… Exit..I Leave… or better yet, go and be gone. For a mass of people with garnered and conjoined aims, it become Exodus… the Exit of Us…screw it, we’re out of here and best of luck.

I was watching this documentary recently about the Holy Grail bloodline or something along those seemingly occulted lines, I don’t seriously pay attention to the mash of shit they call documentaries today, but I remember this guy talking about the temporal line of esoteric knowledge passed down…that Underground Stream of wisdom and how at any given point, in any geographical place, a person can see and comprehend the truths, flowing like a weird X-ray that worms its way through everything in its path and that person can make a stand in their place on the Path and reach upwards. This vertical, blinding column of awareness can occur at any time, at any place and as can be expected…it pisses everyone off around them. The transcendence of a person or group causes everyone and everything around them to stop and ultimately, look inside of themselves. It need not be spiritual, although I can see how phenomenal talent, or the will to do the right thing could be the onset of loftier attainment, far down that lonely, lightning ridden desert of minds and experiences future.

To have to face your inner world, with all of its sick and shattered patchworks of the foundation of ego, can be unforgiving. Worse yet, it causes the ripples in the waters of quaint, formal and adolescent cultural contrivances that people grip exhaustively to sustain some remnant of an experienced pinnacle of acceptance, that has long since evaporated. Enough of these ripples eventually become monstrous, twisted and fanged looming waves that seem to stack up in the cold and violent seas of the uninitiated mind.

It is not hard to see why people exile a peer or why a group can commit to exodus from the populace they inhabit. People and groups build inner monuments to their spectacular glory and ‘awesomeness’ and need, not just want, but need to be reinforced by other hand raised salutes of illusory victory of those around them. Ironically, the ones typically exiled were never competing or challenged by them in the first place. They simply wanted to be ‘there’, co-creating and sharing experiences along side them in the great adventure we call life.

It must suck to be afraid of ones own shadow and not have the awareness of its source.

Our Sun


Our Celestial Body

Daily Meditation Focus 18SEP2009

The Role of Thought – “Thinking for Yourself”  thought1

I have no idea how many times I’ve heard that saying, “Think for Yourself”. We all have. It actually wasn’t until much later in life, that I began to understand that adage.

Just this morning, I got a call from a good friend of mine in California. He wanted some advice on handling a somewhat political issue, as a result of dealing with some interesting people problems. We spoke for a while and it became clear that the issues he was discussing are all too common in business and corporations, even families and churches, any assembled group of humans really. When the normal daily routine is disturbed for a continuing amount of time, people will create drama, they will go to the point of actually creating conflict where there is none (in some cases, people do this when everything is fine as well). Rumor get manufactured, cliques get established and mob mentality settles in. At this point, people are not thinking for themselves.

We go through life, dependent on others for information. We have limited senses and our bodies can not function very well in modern society without guidance. When we are very young, we are quite literally dependent on those around us for everything. As we get older, we learn to do things for ourselves, but amazingly, many continue to rely on others for thought. I am astonished by the volume of quotes, rehashed newspaper or television commentary I hear daily by those around me. In many cases, the people regurgitating the information to me think they have the thought that they are conveying to me, even though I know, it came from someone else.

There are certain truths on this plane which need to be experienced to be thoroughly understood. They are important ones too, and in order to get to the point where one starts to become aware of them , it is necessary for one to think for themself. Jed McKenna has a great quote which is very apropos here: “Think for yourself and figure out what’s true. That’s it. Ask yourself what’s true, until you know”.

The esoteric orders, the Mystery Schools, to some point, even some of the mainstream religions, have at their core, great teachings which help one to move forward with tools and knowledge to allow themselves to functionally think for themselves. This is about our own journey, our personal adventure here and now. When we take someone else’s adventure and internalize it and try to make it our own, we experience conflict, we get the schizophrenic state that so many succumb to in this age. Our own stories are what are important and our own experience is what we learn from best.

By accepting another persons truth we limit our selves. By accepting dogmatic teachings and authoritative notions from government, or religion, a boss, a person of status or someone you admire, you degrade our own worth and devalue the experiences in your life. Be yourself and think for yourself and the world will reward you with riches and wonder and you will experience an amazing life. I usually end these with some text in blue and a thought for the day.. today, I’d just like you to think..for yourself. =)

Your experience is the truth.

Daily Meditation Focus 17SEP2009

Balance and Harmony balance

We live in a world of excess and increasing demand for our personal resources. There is no doubt that our present cultural environment in the West gives rise to illness, neurological disorders and emotional strife.

Many seek to find solace and well being through the collecting of material possessions, a partner in a relationship, a pet or job title, but these additions to ones external life neither balance, nor give lasting results within. Our well-being and inner peace are not determined by exterior forces..we know this by now (man, I hope so). While there are many aspects to inner peace and a healthy life, we will focus on a few simple aspects in this short piece today.

Sometimes the smallest actions can bring about large gains in ones life, if a person just stops to think. Getting proper rest once in a while, or eating a balanced diet can have  significant results in a short period of time. If we move to bring the needs of the body into balance, the reflection in the mind will be impacting. I know..the body exists in the mind, but not everyone has expanded to the point of “knowing” that, and until they do, there is no need to make the journey more difficult for oneself.

Taking time to breathe properly or spending time outside in a natural environment will provide great benefit to the mind and the body. As one begins to see the connection between body and mind, the concept of “harmony” becomes internalized and understood. Balance and Harmony are key principles in Universal laws..the underlying stuff of the world around us.. the operation of the physical world. Not surprisingly, they are key principles in the operation of ourselves too. I find that more times than not, others will take notice when someone around them breaks from the norm and internalizes some aspect of their life that brings balance or harmony to them in some way. We see the value intuitively, even though we may not be following the principle ourselves. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what is the relationship of balance and harmony to meditation and how do we assist others with these principles of life?

Please feel free to post any comments or feedback regarding this topic or share your meditation experience with our community in the Comments section below.

Book Review – The Meaning of Masonry

The Meaning of Masonry – W.L. Wilmshurst momwilmhurst

My father gave me this book as a gift right before I got my First Degree in the Blue Lodge. The author does a very good job of covering some of the deeper aspects of the Craft within Freemasonry as well as very good commentary on some of the historical background of the degrees and Rites.

The real value in this piece, is the abstraction of the Degree initiations and their respective symbolism and philosophy. While there are many, many books on masonic symbolism (see series on Symbol), this book does a very good job of tying the core Blue Lodge journey together with the articles and symbols (example: a very good section on the Apron) associated with each degree through the Royal Arch. The author’s writing style is very natural and flowing and a sense of quiet reverence and respect is felt when reading it. There is mention and commentary on the further degrees and Rites as well as a refreshing dive into the mystical heritage (Mystery Schools) and alchemical tenets of the Order.

While the original publishing is relatively dated ( 1927; my copy is a 1980 revised edition), the content is no less applicable today as it was then. In many cases, the tempo and subject matter are better suited than most of the more recent published works, for the newest generation of Brethren joining for esoteric reasons, rather than purely fraternal or political ones. As I mentioned earlier, this book does have sentimental value to me ( my father and many family members are active in Freemasonry, Eastern Star etc ), but I genuinely see this work as a solid addition to any personal Masonic library… Knife and Fork Masons included 😉


Daily Meditation Focus 16SEP2009

Unity and Separation unity

We all have our relationships in life that play out in various ways. Our bankers handle our funds, dentists clean and repair our teeth, family members and friends support our well being etc. In the western world we live in a mode of separation.. church and state, employer and employee, science and spirituality. As the scientific method and industry evolved into what they are today, the notions of compartmentalization and reductionism began to infiltrate our way of thought. In a sense, these divisionary concepts are our models of how we view the world around us, when the fundamental truth is quite opposite.

While our social structure has been hierarchical for some time, our mode of thought has not. When we see ourselves as separate from everything and everyone around us, we limit ourselves greatly and perpetuate a constant internal state of conflict. Although there are times when we want to reach out, to express ourselves and really connect with others, we often times don’t because of these constructed divisions. We create excuses (illusions)…that person is too ______ or I am not _______ enough. Where exactly do you think these thoughts are coming from?

As one begins to see the similarities, the patterns, principles and universal laws that exist in the world around us, it starts to become clear that everything is related. Shared existence is intrinsic to the entire fabric of reality..not separation. As Above, so Below.. or as Within, so Without. Things in the world are not separate.. we perceive them to be, so it appears to us as that they are. This is a very simple concept yet is causes a life of anguish and suffering for so very many people. Separation is the child of ego and while you and I seem worlds apart, we are not. We are limited and separated by our egos, not by our true selves. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what is the relationship of unity to meditation and how do we overcome separation at all levels?

Please feel free to post any comments or feedback regarding this topic or share your meditation experience with our community in the Comments section below.

In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what roles do the standing temples and pyramids, left by the ancients, play in our present day Mystery Schools and what lessons are to be learned from them?
Please feel free to post any comments or feedback regarding this topic or share your meditation experience with our community in the Comments section below.

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“Life….is a state of mind”

Daily Meditation Focus 15SEP2009

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Throughout the world, remnants and ruins of previous cultures and epochs have become destinations for travelers and sight-seerers since they were constructed. In modern times, these architectural structures are seen in more of a historical light and few who gaze upon these temples and structures see the care or thought, the underlying meaning or teaching left by that earlier man. They see instead, a photo-op or a physical representation of a picture they have kept in their head. People move about these living monuments, waiting for the tour to be over, so they can buy a shirt or book and then stop off at some welcoming establishment for their next Mai-Tai or beer.

Going back to a piece I wrote in this blog a few days ago, I referenced a trip to Washington D.C., taken by a Freemason (Symbol – Part III). In that experience, the prepared Mason can see the wondrous imagery in his mind, brought to life by the symbols carved, graved and sculpted by other Masons from the past. Even though it may be decades, centuries or even millennia later, the message is clear to those who can see.

The Great Pyramid stands now as it has stood for thousands of years. People visit it, climb it and photograph it without giving much thought to the work except how it was built. In the Egyptian Book of the Dead (Book of the Coming Forth of Day; Book of What is in the Duat), the Great Pyramid was known as the Temple of Amun/Amen which means the Secret House of the Hidden One. The word Pyramid comes from the Greek “pyra”, meaning Fire or Light and “midos”, meaning Measure…purimmiddoh, or “Light-Measures” (Fire in the Middle). The length of each side of the Great Pyramid is 9,131 Pyramid inches or Polar inches in length. If you add the sides’ lengths, you get 36,524 Polar Inches. Adding the standard 2/10 of an inch for measurement error, you have 36,524.2, or 100 times the length of each year: 365.242 days. As we look further we find that the height of the Great Pyramid is equal to radius of the circle of solar cycle. The deeper aspect to this geometrical construct, is that in order to properly calculate the verified Pyramid Inch, the Pyramid builders would have had to have known the exact diameter of the Earth.  As you can see, there is often more thought put into these ancient works, than is usually seen with the eye.

It may be that time has erased our references to those builders and the messages they left in the great temples and pyramids, or it may be that we, in our present state, may be too absorbed in self, in the material world, to see those things left to us from the past, in spirit and in mind. The notion that previous cultures translate as ‘primitive’ or unenlightened, may be incorrect. The fact may be that the ability to transcend; to comprehend and internalize the outer world, may have not only been present in previous cultures, but that previous epochs of man may have been well beyond the current range of comprehension as we know it now. As Obi-Wan (or maybe George Lucas) said, “Your focus determines your reality’. If one were to focus outwards just a bit and open their minds to new possibilities, instead of relying on what they “know”, they may find reality to be something much different than they knew it to be. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what roles do the standing temples and pyramids, left by the ancients, play in our present day Mystery Schools and what lessons are to be learned from them?

Please feel free to post any comments or feedback regarding this topic or share your meditation experience with our community in the Comments section below.

Reader Contribution – My Yoga Story

Submitted September 14th, 2009 by Brother Jason.

My Yoga Story

I am a partially disabled veteran. I broke my back in a training accident in the Army years ago. Following that, I had pain every day of my life for 10 years. I could not even bend over to brush my teeth. I would have to lean on my elbows on the sink to wash my face. I was not able to bend and pick up things from the floor or weed the garden. At one point, my conditioned worsened to the point where I could no longer sleep well either.

I had tried everything short of surgery (massage, chiropractic, physical therapy, ultra-sound, hot tub, getting super fit, and pain killers) and had yet I still no permanent relief from my pain. Finally, I heard about someone who was able to recover from a back injury using yoga. I enrolled in a “vinny yoga” class for people who had physical limitations. Going in, I was highly skeptical of yoga as it seemed slow, pointless and lame. But I was desperate to try anything at that point.

When I entered the class, I found that I was the only male. The other participants were mostly peri-menopausal women, which added to my reluctance. Initially I found this even more uncomfortable. But the teacher began by teaching us how to use the basic yoga breathing techniques and how to use the yoga Banhdas “locks” to center our energy during the Asanas (poses) and protect ourselves during movement. Once we began breathing, immediately my concerns about the silliness of the class or my situation as the only dude melted away.

The Vinny class I took was gentle and had many modified poses for people who could not get into the classical pretzel forms. This was great for me. After going 2-3 times per week for 2 months, I noticed that I began to have dramatically more freedom of movement and less pain. But I noticed something else too. My life energy was increasing. I began to do things I was unable to do for years. I began gardening like crazy, hard core hiking, rock climbing etc. The other thing that happened was that my world outlook began to shift from the temporal sphere to the spiritual. I also became a much calmer and more relaxed person.

Eventually, I was able to progress from that class and move on to other forms of yoga- ashtanga, flow yoga, forest yoga, anusara, hot yoga, kundalini yoga, etc. At their core, they are very similar. I think the most important part is to find a yogi or yogini (yoga teacher) for whom yoga is their life’s work (so for example not a jazzercise instructor who took a one week training class). There is something special that I cannot explain that can be transmitted by a true yoga master to a student.  I think the phrase is “shaktipat” in the Sanskrit.

My yoga practice has waxed and waned over the years, as time and money have allowed. I find that going one time per month to a class and doing just a few minutes per day on my own is enough to keep me pain free.

The physical benefits are very important.  However, the real value for me is not the physical, but the emotional and the spiritual benefits.  I have experienced deeps states of bliss doing yoga, feelings of oneness with all of creation. When my practice is deepest, I also have very vivid and lucid dreams. On some occasions I have even experienced visions or been given the gift of insights or answers to questions at the moment of sivasana or “corpse pose”—when you lay as a corpse at the end after clearing all your chakras and energy pathways. It also symbolizes the death of the ego. I find that the ego shifts to the back seat during yoga and is most unified with the true self in the Sivasna pose at the end of practices.

I have been taught many lessons through the simple yogic practice of attention the breath and movement—lessons of letting go, of how to flow with things, oneness of all.

Eventually I began to see my whole life as a yoga practice. Physically it has changed my awareness of my body, how I am holding my tension, how I am moving and breathing throughout the day. Emotionally, it has given me the tools to calm and center myself in any situation. I once had a boss yell at me just before a presentation to 50 people. I went to another room and did some breathing for 2 minutes and then went and did a kickass presentation. [He actually apologized afterwards and then asked me how I was able to remain unaffected and calm.]

Spiritually, it has stoked the fires of spiritual learning in me and a thirst for knowledge as well as the commitment to practice loving kindness and continual worship throughout my day to day life.

So here I have this curse of an injured back. It forces me to do yoga at least once per month to stay mobile. But it’s also a major blessing. It has led me to a yoga practice which in turn has led me to my current life path and even freemasonry. Each time I go to a class, it reminds me of who I truly am outside the field of time.  After practicing, I always say to myself “why am I not doing this every day?”

It just so happens that I am about to enter a new phase in my yoga life.  A yoga studio opened in the same building I worked in. I joined the studio and will now be able to go to as many classes as I like. It’s very convenient and I will have no excuse. I am really looking forward to this next chapter in my yoga journey!

Daily Meditation Focus 14SEP2009

Acceptance acceptance

We interact with many people in the course of a day or week and see the many roles and actions associated with those around us.. people working, shopping, playing, crying, praying or just enjoying time on a park bench.

We experience life more fully, not by our actions but through our perceptions of what we are experiencing. I’ve seen the quote: We are not humans doing, we are humans being”. While that may be humorous or simply amusing, there is great truth in it.

We experience suffering when we create conflict between the world out “there” and what we experience internally. We exist here to experience life… from the slightest breeze to the most violent earthquakes. Instead of just accepting the experience we sometimes bring the outside, “inside” and we begin to craft a story about ourselves, which is totally imagined..always. Did you catch that? Apparently not…and that’s the point. Instead of partaking in the moments and allowing the message and wisdom that abounds in every act of nature, to teach and  enlighten us, we were busily engrossed in creating our own illusory storyline.

We create an illusion to satisfy the ego even though it does nothing for us. As we invest energy in these illusory connections, these attachments, we diminish our power and create another anchor that will need to be hoisted later. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, how does acceptance relate to compassion and why do our attachments degrade our interpersonal relationships?

Please feel free to post any comments or feedback regarding this topic or share your meditation experience with our community in the Comments section below.

Daily Meditation Focus 13SEP2009

Procrastination and Distraction  Grimoire2

Today, we will shift gears a bit regarding our focus topic. Many years ago, when I first began actively researching and studying metaphysical and occult texts, I focused on the classic tomes, penned prior to the 20th century. A few of the earliest compendiums added to my later, burgeoning collection were The Grimoire of Pope Honorious, Demonographia, Malleus Maleficarum  and De Plancy’s classic, Dictionaire Infernal. A more common foray to the Path, than some may think.

As my private studies and later, more formal instruction, led me to to see parallels between the classic view of demonology and modern psychological theories, I took the next step and become quite interested in the relationships of esoteric allegory to aspects of evolving consciousness. Much more recently, I had a great conversation with my mentor of 20+ years, who mentioned in passing, that he now only identifies two demons: procrastination and distraction. I chuckled and nodded at first and then actually thought about it.

While character flaws, vices and the like plague many people, regardless of spiritual alignment, these two ego-driven aspects of consciousness can prove formidable opponents in any situation, at any step along the path. I speak of this not in terms of simple hinderances in obtaining the awareness of certain fundamental truths regarding the natures of reality and our present consciousness, but also in regards to preparations for Transition. I’ve heard it said several times over the years, that once a person is on the Path, the only obstacle that prevents them completing the Great Work in that lifetime, is themselves. In that respect, these two constructs of ego accomplish their jobs quite well. Anyone reading this text, as published, understands the draw of the Internet and now, people can tweet, blog, shop and amuse themselves with a growing array of digital delicacies that will not likely slow soon.

Since beginning our ongoing adventure within this blog, we have covered a broad range of topics and concepts, and while it is one thing to experience and internalize them during our meditation sessions, it is quite another to maintain a focussed state of mind, depth of consciousness and overall awareness during the rest of our active daily lives. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what roles do procrastination and distraction play in aiding our progress on the path?

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Daily Meditation Focus 12SEP2009

The Role of Silence goldthought – “Silence is Golden”

We’ve all heard the saying: Silence is Golden (Speech is Silver) but not many think about that age old axiom. Meditation has been called the “creation in the silence” by many and references to isolation and the removal of exterior influences abound in the meditation texts for over 4,000 years. While the esoteric references to the subject of gold are too numerous to mention in this brief text, a few dovetail nicely for our needs today. We will look at some additional background information pertaining to some intriguing aspects of a few of these references as well.

The first and most widely referenced allegorical golden symbol is the sun, our provider, nourisher and catalyst for creation on Earth. Its constant energetic action is reflected in the mind’s constant awareness, even in sleep and the seemingly never ending internal chatter of thought. We’ve recently touched upon the symbol of the sun as it relates to the chakra system(See Daily Focus Meditation from 9SEP2009). Although seldom documented, the chakra system is closely tied to the endocrine system. Each chakra corresponds to a gland in the body. NOTE: If there is enough interest, I will explore these pineal1relationships in detail at a future time. Additionally, each gland has an affinity or pairing with a specific noble metal, in this case the pineal gland has correspondence with gold as a physical analogue to the esoteric evolution and perfection of consciousness; both the Philosopher’s Stone of the Middle Ages.  As you begin to understand sacred sciences and the unified teaching of Pharaonic Egypt, you will see how our differentiated sciences were once an integrated set of teachings. In short, there are relationships between mathematics, chemistry, music, physics and other disciplines which are not expressed in the modern scientific models for various reasons. Concepts such as shared resonance and harmonic proportion, in this instance there are analogous tendencies in say, the orbitals and vibrational harmonics of the gold atom which correspond to the composition, function, vibrational nature and structure of the pineal gland in a mutually beneficial way. These interactions can effect the spin or state of the gold atoms and conversely, the activity of the pineal gland, which relates to the third eye (see series on Symbol) or mind’s eye (6th chakra); a key component in the meditation act. The fact that the practice of alchemy concerns the transmutation of base elements into gold (see today’s Book Review) is another well known association to this metal that most alive today are aware of. We now have a very basic connection between gold and silence, in the context of meditation and alchemy.

It is in the silence or stillness that one is brought face to face with their own emotions and thoughts. During meditation, we access an inner realm which ceases to exist solely in either physical or non-physical manifest realities, yet shares aspects of both. The union of the above and the below; the higher and lower. I recently heard it said (see Movie Review from today), that the crucifixion scene itself, is a images-1pointer to the mechanics and mysteries of mediation and the Inner tradition. As the Master teacher’s hands were nailed down, or pinned (we also see a veiled astrotheological reference, as the stasis is in space and time as well; A “fixed-point” neither on earth or in the heavens) we see the pointer to stillness and reckoning with the internal. As one sits with themselves and begins to delve into their own being, their own recesses of consciousness and identity, their emotional constructs of the ego, the mediation process begins.

As we learn to slowly push away the constant inner dialog of the ego and begin to bear witness to our own thoughts as they appear and dissolve, we open the inner dialogue with the higher self and the Alchemical Great Work commences. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, what is the relationship of silence to consciousness and how does silence aid us in our non-meditative states?

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Movie Review – Leap!

I watched this movie a few days ago and have had discussions with several friends of mine who have seen it also. This movie is a great compilation of interviews and quotes which build upon each other to create a very good picture of the nature of reality as it relates to those on the path and expanding consciousness. The concept of this world as illusion is very, very old and is a difficult subject to breech in conversation with those unfamiliar with esoteric teachings or initiation.

While many Orders and the Mystery Schools have been preparing minds for this truth for thousands of years (see series on Symbol), the open discussion in a public forum is a relatively new phenomenon. The movie addresses several of the issues that prevent many from accepting this state of consciousness and does a good job of dealing with the paradoxes of this pivotal transition in thought, using general terms and concepts.

This movie is definitely on my holiday gift list for several friends and a few family members. Bravo to the film makers for even attempting to capture this truth on video.


Purchase the Leap! DVD here.

Book Review – In Pursuit of Gold~Alchemy Today in Theory and Practice

In Pursuit of Gold~Alchemy Today in Theory and Practice – Lapidus  IPG

I purchased this book several years ago during a period of exhaustive research and obsession with alchemy. This book was a limited printing and has become increasingly rare and is relatively costly to acquire. It contains a great deal of information and includes the classical wisdom from the core contributors, back to Artephius.

The text includes at least 4 complete instruction sets on how to make the stone and does reference the white powder. There is a fine assortment of classic alchemical plates in the center binding as well as modern sequences for completing the work and a useful Q&A section in Appendix I.

I must stress that this book is only useful to those with full grasp of symbolic teachings and esoteric interpretation (see series on Symbol). Those attempting to access this book using traditional western thought or a midrash-esque view of alchemical texts will find this work frustrating.

Chapters 3 (The Secret Book) and 12 (Vade Mecum) may be especially useful to those ensconced in alchemical pursuits. A fine collectors piece.

In Pursuit of Gold~Alchemy in Theory and Practice on Amazon

Video Clip – Bill Hicks~Last Words

I’ve been a fan of Bill Hicks for a long, long time. This is a good tie-in to today’s Meditation focus piece.

“today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed into a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself. subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves. here’s tom with the weather.” – bill hicks

Daily Meditation Focus 11SEP2009

The Role of Human Action sphinx_group

Over the past week we have looked at various aspects and roles related to  meditation. Today I’d like to shift our focus slightly to the role of human action as it relates to a participatory society. In ancient Egypt, the culture was driven by a lofty goal which can scarcely be comprehended by the majority of minds alive today, yet they lived with a sense of purpose and their contributions to the culture they took part in were an integral part of who they were. Imagine a culture where everyone understood the cycle of reincarnation, lived without the massive gravity of overfed egos, were comfortable with who and what they were and saw their life as an expression of the divine principles and laws of nature. A Culture where status, money, title and race had nothing to do with a daily grind and quality of life, sharing, laughter and an overwhelming sense of unity was the norm.

The principle of love was discussed in this forum a few days ago and we will touch on that principle again briefly. As we move along this path, most of us will we eventually begin to see the world as it is, as illusion. At some point, we see the overwhelming evidence of this for ourselves and our life 911is never the same. It is at that point, that we understand our roles as creators and see the unity of ourselves, our fellow mankind and the Cosmic. As we deal with the people in the Game of Life, our Mystical Adventure, we always have the option to embrace the world around us and through our actions, partake in the many roles and dramas that we become aware of, or we can simple become part of the status-quo and try to forget. To embrace love, or embrace the construct of ego, fear.

It is in our actions, the participation in the human drama, that we see ourselves reflected in others and the world around us. In regards to our journey on the path and seeing the physical experience as a mystical adventure, how do our actions benefit the Illusion; the world around us and what is the role of love in our experience here on Earth?

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